*true blue*

Lately, I've been feeling a bit under the weather. Hmmmmmmm... come to think about it again I don't think so but perhaps a whole lot more worse than that. It's been for the past couple of weeks. As days passed by my feelings kept getting worse and worse. Not only that, 'this so- called issue' has taken my whole life like a whirl-wind. I feel 'sucky' all the time and everything changes. let me just list the things which have changed over the past couple of weeks.

* My complexion. Like really people... I feel like I've got a gazillion of small planets making their way on my face. Arrggghhh.. We women sure hate it when this happens.

* Feeling bloated =(. This is my number one nemesis. I am not kidding you. I get it a lot of times lately. And how can I not have them? I've not been eating correctly during the day especially at work. One minute lunch is at 1 and the next it could be at 3. Yup..having lunch at 3. By then I've made a balloon out of my stomach. Regardless of how many times i kept pressing my stomach inwards, it still remains the same. Sadly. I bet Mike Tyson could not even make it flat *exaggerating*. Speaking of being bloated, I haven't been fair to my body either.  Been consuming a lot of those yummy, greasy foods. That's comfort food for me at moments like this. I kept making empty promises to my body that i'll start taking good care of it week after week. Unfortunately, those promises fall onto deaf ears of mine. Sheessshhhhh.

*My motivation and self drive has totally gone down to ground ZERO. I repeat ZERO. The only thing that keeps me moving would be.... the thought of going for my holiday next week. That's it. I have always been a positive and cheerful person. Except for the time of the month (sometimes n not all the time). I've always been a person who is ahead of time. But now... look at me. I don't even have the drive to move forward (so much for new year's resolution. Just so you know, I've stopped making them a looooooooooooooong time ago. I only make them when a new semester arrives). I hate it when I feel like this. This is soooo not me. I'm not a grumpy  & moody person.....YET. I hope i'll not get there.

Honestly, I am extremely tired of this *jing jang bang*. Really. I'm tired to the extend that I just want to runaway somewhere far far away. Really. But of course running away doesn't solve the problem. Here's my personal message to the *jing jang bang*.....

Please...for the love of God, stop doing this to me. I may be a small part of ... but I have FEELINGS. I'm hurt, I'm tired of all this and I'm sad. Please stop it. I need my real life back. I really do.

PERIOD

...self note to Mye

The next time you feel like you've come to an end of something or you feel like you're alone ... Stop . Deep down inside you know that you have that One who always listens and knows what's best for you. Thank you to the MostMerciful for always listening to my doas.

Bidding farewell to the Holy month of Ramadhan and welcoming beautiful Syaawal..

Ramadhan has always been a month that I look forward to each year. At the same time it leaves me with a pang of sadness at the end of it. There are many reasons on why I always welcome Ramadhan with an open heart. The main reason is because it cleanses my spirit and soul. In life, we are bound to make mistakes, regardless whether they are verbally or physically done. Hence, Ramadhan would be a good start to ask for forgiveness from the Almighty over the accidental sins that we have done along the years. As a human, I know I've made mistakes in life ( I might have hurt a friend's feeling, neglected important people in my life, less appreciate the kindness of some or maybe a slip of tongue ). Thus, Ramadhan cleanses my soul ,helps to lift my spirits to be a better Muslim and His humble servant as well. I always feel relax & at peace everytime I seek for forgiveness from Him. And I hope and pray that He'll hear and accept my sincerest apologies. Looking from a different point of view,  Ramadhan is different than other months of the year because it is the time when I normally set new ambitions and set my determination. Not that any other months are not good enough but it's just the feeling that I normally have during this time of the year. Alhamdulillah, so far I've always achieved my ambitions (not all but some ;) ). So, just a kind note to my readers, perhaps next year's Ramadhan would be a good try for you? ;) . Give it a go! Besides that, this Holy month never fails to teach me the true essence of life. In today's fast pace world, the thought of those who are less fortunate than us might slip from our mind. Those craving for a drink to quench their thirst or even in need for food to satisfy their hunger. Then, there are some of them who crave for love and care from others with the hope that one day they will be able to feel and taste it. The feeling of being loved and cared for. Love is definitely a feeling that one naturally feels of having. It is indeed a need by everyone. These situations make me feel appreciative towards the endless wealth and health that He gives me (my family, my fiance, a good job, the ability to walk, talk, eat etc).  I feel thankful over the things that I have in life and treasure them more. I feel closer to Him. And during this month as well, I will always try to find my 'nuur' (in Arabic 'nuur' means light). I am not sure if you know what I mean but when i feel the 'light' it always makes me feel more motivated, in better spirits and lifts up the tone in my life. It's an unexplainable feeling that I get and always look forward to. Until I meet you again next year, InsyaAllah. So readers......there you go, on the reasons why I feel sad when bidding farewell to Ramadhan. Goodbye Ramadhan , it has indeed been a beautiful and humble month.

(This year's Ramadhan was a sad one for me as a collegue of mine passed away. It was a tragic incident and definitely a big loss for most of us at the faculty. To Sis Mariam, you had been an honest and sincere friend to me. A person who was truly genuine and I pray and hope that He places you with all the beautiful souls at His place. Al-Fatihah).

Until then....my next post will be on the beautiful month of Syaawal . Salam to all my readers and goodnight.

on being tired

Believe it or not the semester is almost coming to an end. Phewwwwwww *hugeeeee &  looooog sigh of relief*. Honestly, this semester has been a whirlwind for me. *a real whirlwind mind you*. There's like endless tasks which required my attention (admin job =p) , neverending seminars and forced conferences (heh) that I attended, countless students' essays read and marked (some of them were quite mind boggling and ......ZZzzzzz) , plus my wedding preparations as well ( yaay! Something to keep my spirits alive =) ). I'm left with a week to go and then F.R.E.E.D.O.M.! Time to do some catching-ups. I've neglected a lot of things that I personally enjoy and used to indulge myself into. I miss curling up on my comfy bed and immersing myself with a good book. I used to do this every night or early morning over the weekends but now... by night time my brain refuses to think or even stay alive (hahahaha). All it wants is just a good rest and relaxation. I guess I've drained my brain during the day so much that it rejects any information during night time. Plusss my stack of storybooks have been abandoned on the side of my bed under piles and piles of students 'assignments and research journals. EEEEEeeeeekkkkk ... suddenly I sounded like a geek. I miss meeting up with friends simply because I gotta do some work on Friday noons (I know it's a working time but we ladies are pretty free in the noons ;) or in the evenings (when I don't have classes). I miss coffee moments & fun  lunches with them (Syd & Kak Lin I miss lah our meetings, can't wait for our triple celebration in Sepetember! ). I'm not sure about you readers but I always enjoy waking up early in the morning to look outside of my window and indulge myself with the view from my window and simply do a bit of reflection bout my life ;) (just realized that I've got so many 'and's' in a single sentence. ) I would say it's really therapeutic. OOOOOOOHHHHHHHhhhhhhh and what I miss most would be my peaceful afternoon nap over  the weekends. Sometimes, there's just work that needs to be done hence 'bye-bye' nappy time. Aaarrrggghhh! I miss a whole lot of other things ....

I guess a week is not that long anymore, Come soon September!
*looking forward to something special in September*;)

on LOVEables

Definition of ME

of things that I missed the most

2007 to 2008 I was away in Perth, W.A to pursue my Master's degree. It was a year where I learnt a lot of new things , experience the sweetness and bitterness of hardwork on my own and embrace life from different perspectives. It was indeed a once in a lifetime experience. If I could go through it all over again , I wouldn't stop myself. from doing so. It was truly a self- rewarding experience and something that money can't buy. Ever since my big shift to the land down under and a year long living in a suitcase I lugged all my things back to my home country. Looking back , I know that deep down in me misses a few good things back there. 

*My daily morning walks on the famous cafe strip in Mount Lawley during Winter on my way to work. The cool and crisp air against my face /Making sure that my fingers snugged tightly in the comfort of my winter jacket pockets/ morning greetings from strangers that are just friendly* I simply enjoyed looking at the shops that I passed by Planet Books (a place where I normally shop for cheap DVDs and let myself lost amongst rows and rows of books ), the display of new arrivals at Picnic (an Australian clothing label), Highs & Lows (to all you sneakers freak out there, if you ever visit Perth this is definitely a must- go shop . And it should be in the sneakers bible too =p) . 

*Coffees. I have never been a coffee drinker until I went to Perth. No, it's definitely not because I worked at a cafe and the fact that I know how to make coffees (Long Machiato, Short Machiato, Cappuccino, Espresso, Latte, Affogato, Flat White etc) I would say it's because of the beans that they use which makes the taste real good. It also depends on how you brew it as well. The smell of freshly grind coffee = AHmazing! 

*Fremantle @ Freo . This is one place that I can never get enough of. Like really. Fremantle is a place where you will be immersed with what Australia can offer with a twist or a hint of flavours from other parts of the world. I used to enjoy looking at the beautifully decorated shops (pls refer to prev post for example ;)), the scent of yummy looking homemade lotions & potions, rainbow coloured soaps that are decked in different shapes and sizes, lovely trinkets to die for ( if you're a big fan of lucky charms and small jewelry, like your's truly be sure to bring extra $$ as you'll definitely gonna go bonkers looking at them) and definitely kitchenware. Yup...You heard me right...kitchenware =). They are simply beautiful, cute and just makes you want to be a homemaker (that's actually one of my future dreams. Sayang...take note*wink wink* ).Almost all the shops that sell kitchenwares have got something different on the table to offer  you. Arrgghhh!!! you'll just go crazy. 

So...there you go a few things that I missed back in the land down under. I know I haven't done enough justice in laying out other good things over there but I'm getting drowsy (just took my flu medication), I think I'll stop here. Until then...

G'day Mate!

xoxo

 *Since we don't have Hungry Jacks back home, hence, a photo memory. Mind you it's not a halal place to eat*

                 * It's spring time! Araluen = place to go and see beautiful and multicolour tulips *

                                                                     *Wave Rock*

                                                                        *Freo *

                        * A night to remember - Rob Thomas... you had me at ... (long and dreamy sigh) *

                                                                   * My lil apartment *

                                                                   * Mount Lawley*

*listening to One Republic -Good Life =) a good one indeed*

A friend in Adam Baker

F.r.I.e.n.D.s F.o.r.E.v.E.r

Friends. This post is specially for a dear friend of mine who's miles away in the land of down under. Yup. Waaaaaaaaaay down there ;) . To my buddy Adam this one's for you. 

I have to admit that I don't have that many friends. I think I've got more acquaintances rather than friends. For me, a friend is one who would be there for you through thick and thin. Moment of sadness and happiness. And definitely would wake up from a deep sleep or lend you his/her shoulder at any time that you need him/her. It's definitely not someone who talks behind your back the moment you're out of sight or feel a tinge of jealousy when he or she knows you've done better than him/her. So... in other words it's simply a true, pure an honest kind of bond that the both of you share.

Throughout the journey of my life (up till this day), I've got some that I've lost along the way (let's not go to why it all happened) , kept a distance because of disagreements or petty arguments, lost touch simply because of the distance or even just because you've allowed yourself to be part of a new crowd of friends and letting the ones that you've got slipped away. That's pretty much on how I've lost some of mine. It's sad when you see the ones that you've grown fond of or build a bond for a long long time slowly become far apart from you. Nevertheless, there's always a reason to find new ones and keep them as part of your life.

I don't know Adam all my life but throughout my friendship with him it's been great. Simply a simple young  chap but definitely a sweet and honest friend. One could never ask for a better friend than you bud. I really appreciate your company while I was there. Both you and Nao chan are amazing people. Thanks for accompanying me while I was on my shopping spree (poor you had to wait outside each shop that I went in to =p), lending your ears and most of all the warm hospitality that you gave (the numerous lunches/dinners/breakfasts). A big thanks for the Xmas gift as well. I'm glad to have known both You and Nao =) . My lovelies in Perth.So, before I get all teary-eyed... Happy Birthday to you and cheers dude to the many more years of our F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P =)

Can't wait for my next trip over there with my other half ;) (sayang...hint*hint*)

Having Frozen Yogurt in Freo (still can't forget the argument over who's gonna pay over them yogurts). I owe you this one.When you get here in November the treat will be on me. OOOhhhh look at sweet & funny Nao.

In front of my favorite shop in Fremantle, Perth W.A. (Poor Adam gotta bend a bit since I'm darn 'tall'. Heh.

Alrighty then...that's it for now. Until my next post...

xoxo